its the start of my 5th term, time flies really fast (didnt i say this word everytime?)
im glad last term ends, it was really depressing for alot of reasons.

this term isnt all better too, so many assignments and seems like so many things going on,
anyway ive been lookin through colleges for my degree course,
last time i insisted to stay at malaysia, bc i really liked it here..

but for some reason, it wasnt all that fun anymore
ill probably go for sydney's or new zealand's raffless if im not staying here,
and depends on my family's financial,
i would really like to go to college at illinois and meet some old friends,
so i guess i do miss my old friends after all

lately, i got in contact with my old friends again from my secondary (thanks to FB)
after rarely contacting them for at least ayear and i gotta say i was really happy to be able to talk with them again,
old times was good, wish i can go back to that times or the times where i still really enjoy malaysia..
and i lost something important, probably irreplaceable..

lastly, to my dear friend ven , rest well, ill miss the day we got caught for gambling <3
im sorry i didnt go to see u, we shall meet again there when its time for me.

sometimes, u just wont understand their way thinking
and i dont see this as a 'solution', its more of 'confusion',
just what are they planning?

he called, we talked,
he said that thing, i almost broke down,
it was stupid, it really was..

its kind of stupid get my hopes so high and takes it away..
without any fucking good reason. /facepalm
but i couldnt say anything bc i still do respect u very much. just why?



*at the lowest spirit to continue my study* /sigh

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you. (am i? lol)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior. :)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. =)

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success. (lawllll so true......)

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel. (yea sorry.....)

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

take the quiz here
sorry no update =p, very busy!! everything is due this week gosh..

i do exactly what stupid dogs does the whole damn time =(
stupid dogs are stupid.. oh the irony..

well.. firstly, Happy belated Chinese New Year everyone!
i didnt go back (again), no hard feeling tho.. looks like im getting used to this condition, sadly..
and just to be honest, i dont really miss my home anyway lol (bad boy me...)
at least i had someone to accompany me this time, so this holiday wasnt really that bad =)

so.. ever since i sold Hiro, looks like shits are changing and i hope it stays that way for long time,
i got me a PSP with my hardwork (LOL!!!!!), lot of other shits i wanted, and havent look back to play another online game (well.... mostly bc ive too many assignments and 'self studies', not bc i dont want to play another online game lol)
im relieved tho that i made a great decision to let go that piles of timesink at last after 4 years of playing,
but once a gamer always a gamer..

my recent projects, page layout thingy, basically we are making a collage booklet.
great.. i hate collages, bc its alot of work and i suck so bad when it comes to cutting things (p.s not neat),
luckily, we can choose any themes!! i chose 'game' as my theme.

at first i wanted to work on "Online Game" in general, but i changed my mind and im doing this game called "Dissidia: Final Fantasy" instead,
first reason i chose this is bc im a Final Fantasy Fanboy since i knows how to touch controllers, well im a fanboy of alot of series so lol. (NERD ALERT HELLO!!)
second reason is bc there are no official guide/artbook out for this game yet, or at least not at malaysia yet.
so im basically making my 'dream' book here, something i know i will keep when im done with this assignments.. it might be alittle hard to process what im tryin to say here, but please bear with me.. its fkn 5.23am so i cant really think all that well..

so far im enjoying this assignments except cutting the texts part -_-
hope all turns out good in the end, quite a shitty day today (yesterday technically)
so bye..

can i =(?

V.C 4.1 [START button]!!

time flies so damn fast... i remember i was writing an entry about early v.c 3.1 like not long ago..
along with the monster mania projects, im not sure why last term ends really quick lol.
maybe i was actually enjoying it =o, anyway.. about my holiday, it was actually most fun holiday i had,
we went to Macao>Senzhen>HongKong, i liked the weather. cold like 12'C but not very cold that u'll go freezing lol and get to wear my jacket everytime haha! yeah i loved my jacket very much and i dont get to wear it in Malaysia bc its so damn hot here =(, went to alot of nice places, <3 'Window of The World' at Senzhen

but i enjoyed this trip very much mostly bc of my niece! damn shes so damn adorable !!
last time i saw her, she was only like little baby with no hair and cant smile for shit lol.
but now.. shes 1 year old and currently superstar among our family, everyone loves her
my mom probably wants to kidnap her already haha! she wants a daughter bad i guess =(! too bad she keep spitting out male babies but its all good, bc she spitted out handsome babies like me HAhAhAh!!!

here she is, borned to stand out */nod*
i cant even get enough of her (i doubt anyone can!!),
this is just one of her pics out of shittons of'em

ok so about 4.1, first week of college and we already have 3 assignments..
we've 4 subjects; "Layout Design"; "Identity System"; "Typo 1"; "Interactive User Design";
so far, the classes are ok but not what i like the most (missed photoshop class and Daffee =(!)
we're now at 3rd week and already have tons of assignments, damn it >_>
starts from Booklet Collage, weekly 10 typography collage, logos making (with 25 logos etc etc...), 'favorite word' typo photo,... lol i'll stop here... kinda frustating thinkin about this hahahahaha

anyway... ive decided to sell Hiro (at last) so i can commit on my study and not half-assing my projects,
while im not sure that i wont be doing that (halfassing projects i mean) , im sure as hell i'll be doing more useful stuff now that i dont have Hiro anymore.
decided to go back on my Japanese study (maybe), which i already forgot like.. most of it (back to basic hiragana and katakana learning arrrgghhhh.. dont even get me started on kanji..)

also my current obsession, 'Digital arts/painting'
most of the works are just so stunningly beautiful and very fairytale-ish
like this one! this is back cover from the book i bought with alot of thought few days ago..
bc it cost a fortune lol, most expensive book i bought so far,
but the contents are very good with tutorials, great images, and stuff. not regretting so far haha
well i dont really regret anything when it comes to books, great investments!

front cover

also bought some books from Indo, very cheap too!! like rm30 only each
i dont really like this one though.. so not my style haha *fuck aliens*

liked both of these books, very fantasy xD!
talking about how to spend rm30 properly here haha

and ive list of books i wanted to buy already o.o!!
there are alots... and costs fortune =(






along with PSP!! LOL

tagged by Jesslyn

1. Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smokes?
doesnt really care

2. How about drinking?
nope, dont give a damn

3. Do you like someone you can't have?
yes? no? maybe?

4. If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
i suppose

5. What's your favourite sport?
used to swim alot , badminton, and some table tennis.. not anymore tho lol

6. It's saturday night, you're home alone. What do you do?
game

7. Do you like roller coasters?
totally

8. When's the perfect time to have a bf/gf?
no idea, its only a status anyway

9. If you could date any celebrity, who would it be?
none, most is idiots with pretty looks

10. What are you doing this weekend?
no plan

11. What is your favourite restaurant?
lol do i need to answer =p

12. Have you ever hugged someone?
yes

13. Ever kissed someone you weren't attracted to?
umm i guess

14. Do you like someone right now?
yeah

15. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
ummm.. boobs lawl

16. Which do you prefer, Beach or Mountains?
fine with either, prefer beach

17. What kind of phone do you have?
Nokia something something

18. Computer or Laptop?
laptop.

19. Jeans or sweats?
neither

20. Which year(s) has/have been the best so far?
Oct'08-Dec'08

21. How old are you gonna be on your next birthday?
19

22. What should you be doing right now?
sleep

23. What is your favourite TV show?
House

24. What's been your last purchase?
um rollcake

25. Are you attracted to girls/boys that smoke?
most likely not bc they smoke

26. Have you ever fallen on your butt in front of a crowd of people?
yes

27. What do you do when you're at home?
coli....................

28. What is your favourite subject?
none for now, too early to decide, but User Interactive Design is quite interesting

29. What's the best thing that happened on you?
get to knows u =)


not taggin anyone bc its a waste of time >O!
anyway, been very lazy since i came back from my trip and very busy week
ill upload some pics when i feels like doing it..

and also been considering to sell something that have been accompanyin me for the last 4yrs,
its currently up for bid and already went up to 1.6k USD in a night, thats quite alot of money..
and i can get PSP with it lol.. but after askin opinions from alot of peeps, ive some doubts in my mind :(

when i think about it again..
do i need the money? no.
do i need the PSP? no.

so what for i sell it?
at first, i thought if i can get rid of this thing, i can commit on my study
except.. its not this thing that really distracted me, it just pure lazyness i guess?

maybe im trying too hard to proof that this hobby is in fact not like what most ppl think.
but again.. why the fuck would i care what ppl think? i never did, so why should i now?
ok ill stop here, since im too sleepy to write an essay.. to be continued.